It's been a hell of a start to the new year/new semester and I am busy aF which is why I haven't written here in over a month. It makes me sad because for over 6 months I was writing consistently once a week. I'm gonna try to do better though.
On very rare occasions I experience hypoglycemia. I get incredibly shaky all of the sudden and very uncomfortable. However, over the past couple of weeks it has been something that has happened a handful of times. It's a terrible feeling because I'm weak, tired, shaking, and overall just feel out of control. It's one of those things that there isn't a reason for and I can't predict. Sometimes it happens right after I've eaten, if I haven't eaten in a while, or just out of the blue. I can go the entire day without eating and feel fine or wake up in the morning feelings like crap.
I think the reason it bothers me so much is because I can't control it, I can't predict it, and I can't make it go away very fast. All I can do is eat something and wait for it to go away. Usually if it happens during the day I will just go to sleep and hope it goes away while I'm asleep so that when I wake up I feel better. Another reason it bothers me is because it makes eating feel like a chore to me. I can't enjoy what I'm eating because I just want it to get in my system and make me quit feeling like crap. But I also don't want to eat anything when I feel like that. Nothing sounds good, nothing tastes good, and I just want to do the least possible to make it go away.
I grew up eating pretty much whatever I want when I want. I have a pretty fast metabolism, food doesn't really affect me physically speaking, I'm not allergic to anything, etc. So for eating to feel like a chore to me and be something I can't enjoy tends to bother me quite a bit.
I bring all this up because this week is National Eating Disorder Awareness week. Not to say it's something I have experienced clinically or anything like that but just to say that I think most people have tendencies associated with that kind of thing every now and then.
According to The Alliance for Eating Disorders, 29 million Americans suffer from eating disorders in their lifetime. That's almost 10% of the population of the United States. Help bring more awareness to eating disorders this week :)
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